Self Sabotage

Self sabotage: I don’t get it, my mind can’t figure it out, can’t understand it, it’s an enigma, why in the world when I wanna lose weight and be healthier would I go and self sabotage myself and my efforts???? I mean come on. I will eat consciously 90% of the time but the 10% buggers it up. I lost a kg recently, it’s been a week or more, I’ve been good, exercised, put food that will nourish me, been burning more calories than the one’s going in, it shows on the scale, I’ve lost a kg. Then self sabotage kicks in, it’s like my body or mind or a part of me has decided that it’s not ok to lose weight, before I know it, I will eat those chocolates or fried stuff or not exercise or something and gain back the weight. I can’t say for sure but feels very much like self sabotage. I’ve just come back from assisting in a Journey event called healing with conscious communication so I’m thinking maybe a 6 step reframe might help.\r\n\r\n

\r\n\r\n I wanna thank you all for your feedback and encouragement you all are giving with your comments 🌹 I am deeply grateful, writing about my emotions and my journey with food, sharing it here, absorbing your comments is somehow helping me. Writing for me is a little like getting a journey process, my emotions are being felt and released as they are being written about, it’s liberating.\r\n\r\n

\r\n\r\n So I carried 3 packs of chocolates for my fellow trainers, delegates and the staff who are now family 🧡 at the school of ancient wisdom, a magical place in Bangalore with peaceful divine powerful energy of the masters. Have given and received some of my most powerful processes here. I love this place 🧡 \r\n\r\n

\r\n\r\n Bounty, Mars and Sneakers were bought and they were around me the whole 3 days and I didn’t eat even one. My body or mind or my being just didn’t want them, they weren’t tempting me somehow. 💃 💃 🍷 🍷 couldn’t resist the delicious Indian deserts Manju cooks at the school for dinner 😆 😆 but when I ate them this time I ate them consciously and enjoyed every morsel, no woofing them down and there was no shame or guilt.\r\n So thank you for sharing this journey with me 👄 👄 may what is working for me continue to work ☝ ☝